Anonymous
07-24-2002, 09:15 PM
Hi,
My name is Carrie, I was placed into a cult disguised as a drug rehab at 13 and kept there for 2 and a half years, exiting at 16. It was a horrible place, kids carving into their arms and writing on themselves in blood, constant confrontation, sleep deprivation, hunger, humiliation. I twas for me better than home. I had astep-fathjer who was abusive at first mentally and physically then at eight he moved up to sexually. Although there wasn't penetration it was like living with a snake not knowing when he would strike. By the time I arrived into the program I was already pretty damaged. I am, 33 now and have protested such places that are still today as of Aug. 2002 still in existence. They are milder and the adjust but the same forced confessions, control issues and abuse continue until this day www.thestraights.com is a good jumping off point if you are ineterested. The difference in this cult is that it was mostly kids who were forced to be there by convincing the parents we would die if we weren't there so even when would try to escape we were just drug back. In alot of cases higher ups were involved, a police officers child was in the program and we were drug back ignored and believe you me, suffered the consequences of our actions and the whole while told what sponges we were and how we should be thankful, until finally we believed....2 and half years can change your thinking, believe me. Anyway I stumbled across this site looking/hoping for a support group that meets in my area, in person. There are so few, but then again I have a problem with large crowds. There are an estimated 50,000 people to date that have been pumped through these types of programs and as you all know for children it is very bad.
I am looking ot fix my mind, I amm 33 today and just starting to understand what was done, it's so sadly simple and barbarrick. All for money. I have read Captive Hearts Captive Minds and contacted the AFF.
I have an appointment with a Dr.Langone next week although it looks bleak. Since he is so far away he feels I may have to issues and worries I may need more than he is able to offer in the way of conselling, I am crying my eyes out, he is a cult expert and I need to understand what he knows. The more I understand the farther away from that locked mindset I can be. It is strange that knowledge can dissolve the hold and that the hold can remain through time in many ways until you understand......Anyway that's my story......... Carrie
My name is Carrie, I was placed into a cult disguised as a drug rehab at 13 and kept there for 2 and a half years, exiting at 16. It was a horrible place, kids carving into their arms and writing on themselves in blood, constant confrontation, sleep deprivation, hunger, humiliation. I twas for me better than home. I had astep-fathjer who was abusive at first mentally and physically then at eight he moved up to sexually. Although there wasn't penetration it was like living with a snake not knowing when he would strike. By the time I arrived into the program I was already pretty damaged. I am, 33 now and have protested such places that are still today as of Aug. 2002 still in existence. They are milder and the adjust but the same forced confessions, control issues and abuse continue until this day www.thestraights.com is a good jumping off point if you are ineterested. The difference in this cult is that it was mostly kids who were forced to be there by convincing the parents we would die if we weren't there so even when would try to escape we were just drug back. In alot of cases higher ups were involved, a police officers child was in the program and we were drug back ignored and believe you me, suffered the consequences of our actions and the whole while told what sponges we were and how we should be thankful, until finally we believed....2 and half years can change your thinking, believe me. Anyway I stumbled across this site looking/hoping for a support group that meets in my area, in person. There are so few, but then again I have a problem with large crowds. There are an estimated 50,000 people to date that have been pumped through these types of programs and as you all know for children it is very bad.
I am looking ot fix my mind, I amm 33 today and just starting to understand what was done, it's so sadly simple and barbarrick. All for money. I have read Captive Hearts Captive Minds and contacted the AFF.
I have an appointment with a Dr.Langone next week although it looks bleak. Since he is so far away he feels I may have to issues and worries I may need more than he is able to offer in the way of conselling, I am crying my eyes out, he is a cult expert and I need to understand what he knows. The more I understand the farther away from that locked mindset I can be. It is strange that knowledge can dissolve the hold and that the hold can remain through time in many ways until you understand......Anyway that's my story......... Carrie