Neil Carrick (24.88.43.233)
06-19-2004, 07:45 PM
Dear Folks Reading This List & Leadership at GGWO:
I have not been posting here for a lot of reasons. That includes I don't need to have my name, my wife, my family or anybody close to me attacked by anybody spoken of in a way that is hurtful instead of helpful. I also have been given much advise on how it would be benificial for all involved if I left some matters and even some people out of this public discussion.
I have zero to gain by speaking well of anybody. The same is true of saying anything in a negative way. The things I say here I hope are for all involved not just some. But the desire of me to do or say anything is not based upon some benifit for me. If anything I have learned that any time I say anything here I get burned by all sides.
Let me make some points that nobody wants to deal with.
1. While it is incredibly obvious that there are real hurt folks posting on Factnet there is neither the focus or the substance, and especially the resources present to help people as a result of coming here. Yes reading, venting, etc may be of some help, but long term emotional and spiritual help for anybody who has been hurt will need to come from resources such as a counseling group with a funding source.
2. I earnestly believe that some good people on both sides are caught up in a name calling match. Christian leadership should never be caught up in such a matter. People who are grown ups in Christ should not be caught up in name calling. A congregation who has been under the leadership of a talanted preacher would not be caught up in name calling. Those who are hurt will even if they are smart, theologically blessed, and really balanced has a potential to say things that are wrong, mean spirited and way sinful simply as a reality of being hurt. I get letters from GGWO people saying things that include that may story is not true because of my reasoning and my emotions. Reality is that if anything my heart has been broken by those closest to me at times and nothing else could explain what I have said and done. Nothing. In fact no level of insanity could explain my thoughts other than real world events.
3. I have no Pastor Mike Marr for longer than I have know the ministry of GGWO. I have known Pastor Robinson since the earliest days of being at GGWO. I think both men are sincere in many, many ways. Beyond their faults they are sincere in things they have done. Scott called me not to long ago and it was only to build me up. It was not for his sake, his ministry or for that matter anything that moved on this planet except for me. He was kind and sincere. When I asked him difficult questions, he didn't try to lie away or apease me. He spoke the truth and to be honest it was hard to swallow sometimes. But I know he meant all of it for good. The same is true for Mike Marr.
4. I am furious at many people. I need to forgive them. But my frustration is heavy at the end of the day for those who do nothing! If you are in leadership and you are not actively seeking repentance and an attitide of reconcilation with those who are hurt I can clearly state you do not believe the book, and you do not know Gods heart. If you read this and get in the pulpit and speak agaist others here and yet take zero responsibility when nobody has publically repented or apologized for the church I say simply expect nothing to get better. God and the values of the scripture are not so easily dismissed. Carl Stevens has taught this for decades. I would suggest those on this list and those in leaderipn would be good to take some of their own medicine for once.
5. I have watched this unfold for months. Not a day passes where I don't think about people hurt and my many friends at GGWO. It hurts that there are people who refuse to be of one spirit. That includes those who attack others on both sides.
6. If you are posting here hoping to help somebody please avoid the mistake I made. I poured my heart out and eventually others started to use my own words to hurt people I know including my family. My wifes family went along with the idea of marking me based upon Gary Odahara's interpation of something Pastor said. Its time for this scenario to leave the house of Stevens and the house of Carrick. God is clear that he wants reconcilation not gray area counsel. When Pastors from any church say things similar to what was said to people in my family it is bound to confuse those involved. What other reason. I am a Baptist by faith interestingly enough and I can explain to a reasonable person they are responsible for their soul and the decisions they make. But I don't need to "agree" with them in any form to create a scenario where there family gets slaughted by the devil of some stupid issue. Such is the case here. It needs to end here on this board and at GGWO. Again live what you have been hearing for years and for that matter if you preach reconcilation you need to live by it.
7. No faithful Elder has been able to go to the pulpit and start reconcilation. I like most have wondered why. I know some things are not so simple. But if you say you honestly believe the book than there isn't a good reason to make it a habbit to say I am sorry often. You never know who you may have hurt. I am a minister and I have often learned that saying sorry now is better for those who listen and for me, than learning years down the road I missed the opportunity. How hard is it to have a heart of humility that is vocal if you have a heart attitude to begin with?
8. Nothing good will come of this board if everybody is on the attack. Put down your sword Peter... That includes you Pastor and you the hurt. Go to the true Good Shepherd and the true Teacher....Jesus.
9. Where is Safeharbor in all of this now. Weeks have passed and if Eric is serios by what he said to me and others he doesn't need GGWO. If Pastor Marr is serious he will say something publically this week.
10. Where is real mediation? If GGWO is serious it will say at least something publically this week. Time has become the friend of Devil in this matter. Maybe in this matter more so than anything else. If you want Carl Stevens to go to his grave and his last days (maybe years from now) with a honorable name in the Christian community you will be so proactive it is unreal. If 1/10th of the remarks I hear from GGWO folks is true about who Carl STevens is than Carl Stevens would be wise to do the things he can to establish the ministry before the Evangelical Community so that in unity of the spirit it will grow beyond his days. If I was Pastor I would make sure Pastor Marr is on the phone on stop, speaking in the pulpit, and writing, calling everybody in an effort to make tings right.
11. We did hire a lawyer. So what? I use lawyers all the time in my field. I do sub contract work for technical jobs. I do work with Real Estate and large companies. I can't avoid lawyers if I wanted to. Non of the folks here contacted me or the like about actually doing anything in a civil action except as a matter of curiosity or some small glimmer of hope.
I think it is like everything else on this board and the like. Those who are hurt, don't know how to react. They are scared. If you take advantage of that hurt than you are enabling the devil. You are being abusive and destructive.
I will be glad to place the letter of intent to settle or began an action on the web who would sign it? Who would go with me? Who would stand up and play hard ball? Who would use the measure of scripture and latter the law if need be to get something done?
12. Finally when my wife posted a couple of peopel responded. She was the one most hurt. Notg a single Pastor was brave enough to respond in a public manner to her. Forget me, how about people like her guys. Hey folks hey about you. How many people called her that have been hurt. Say zero. So much for a heart of reconcilation and love.
Pastor Stevens if you read this and find it painful or hurtful know I wrote it with you in mind. I care for you and hope that you care enough to do the right thing. That includes your home and ministry. I care for your whole family as well as mine.
Neil
Sorry for the typo's I am doing this away from my work computer.
I have not been posting here for a lot of reasons. That includes I don't need to have my name, my wife, my family or anybody close to me attacked by anybody spoken of in a way that is hurtful instead of helpful. I also have been given much advise on how it would be benificial for all involved if I left some matters and even some people out of this public discussion.
I have zero to gain by speaking well of anybody. The same is true of saying anything in a negative way. The things I say here I hope are for all involved not just some. But the desire of me to do or say anything is not based upon some benifit for me. If anything I have learned that any time I say anything here I get burned by all sides.
Let me make some points that nobody wants to deal with.
1. While it is incredibly obvious that there are real hurt folks posting on Factnet there is neither the focus or the substance, and especially the resources present to help people as a result of coming here. Yes reading, venting, etc may be of some help, but long term emotional and spiritual help for anybody who has been hurt will need to come from resources such as a counseling group with a funding source.
2. I earnestly believe that some good people on both sides are caught up in a name calling match. Christian leadership should never be caught up in such a matter. People who are grown ups in Christ should not be caught up in name calling. A congregation who has been under the leadership of a talanted preacher would not be caught up in name calling. Those who are hurt will even if they are smart, theologically blessed, and really balanced has a potential to say things that are wrong, mean spirited and way sinful simply as a reality of being hurt. I get letters from GGWO people saying things that include that may story is not true because of my reasoning and my emotions. Reality is that if anything my heart has been broken by those closest to me at times and nothing else could explain what I have said and done. Nothing. In fact no level of insanity could explain my thoughts other than real world events.
3. I have no Pastor Mike Marr for longer than I have know the ministry of GGWO. I have known Pastor Robinson since the earliest days of being at GGWO. I think both men are sincere in many, many ways. Beyond their faults they are sincere in things they have done. Scott called me not to long ago and it was only to build me up. It was not for his sake, his ministry or for that matter anything that moved on this planet except for me. He was kind and sincere. When I asked him difficult questions, he didn't try to lie away or apease me. He spoke the truth and to be honest it was hard to swallow sometimes. But I know he meant all of it for good. The same is true for Mike Marr.
4. I am furious at many people. I need to forgive them. But my frustration is heavy at the end of the day for those who do nothing! If you are in leadership and you are not actively seeking repentance and an attitide of reconcilation with those who are hurt I can clearly state you do not believe the book, and you do not know Gods heart. If you read this and get in the pulpit and speak agaist others here and yet take zero responsibility when nobody has publically repented or apologized for the church I say simply expect nothing to get better. God and the values of the scripture are not so easily dismissed. Carl Stevens has taught this for decades. I would suggest those on this list and those in leaderipn would be good to take some of their own medicine for once.
5. I have watched this unfold for months. Not a day passes where I don't think about people hurt and my many friends at GGWO. It hurts that there are people who refuse to be of one spirit. That includes those who attack others on both sides.
6. If you are posting here hoping to help somebody please avoid the mistake I made. I poured my heart out and eventually others started to use my own words to hurt people I know including my family. My wifes family went along with the idea of marking me based upon Gary Odahara's interpation of something Pastor said. Its time for this scenario to leave the house of Stevens and the house of Carrick. God is clear that he wants reconcilation not gray area counsel. When Pastors from any church say things similar to what was said to people in my family it is bound to confuse those involved. What other reason. I am a Baptist by faith interestingly enough and I can explain to a reasonable person they are responsible for their soul and the decisions they make. But I don't need to "agree" with them in any form to create a scenario where there family gets slaughted by the devil of some stupid issue. Such is the case here. It needs to end here on this board and at GGWO. Again live what you have been hearing for years and for that matter if you preach reconcilation you need to live by it.
7. No faithful Elder has been able to go to the pulpit and start reconcilation. I like most have wondered why. I know some things are not so simple. But if you say you honestly believe the book than there isn't a good reason to make it a habbit to say I am sorry often. You never know who you may have hurt. I am a minister and I have often learned that saying sorry now is better for those who listen and for me, than learning years down the road I missed the opportunity. How hard is it to have a heart of humility that is vocal if you have a heart attitude to begin with?
8. Nothing good will come of this board if everybody is on the attack. Put down your sword Peter... That includes you Pastor and you the hurt. Go to the true Good Shepherd and the true Teacher....Jesus.
9. Where is Safeharbor in all of this now. Weeks have passed and if Eric is serios by what he said to me and others he doesn't need GGWO. If Pastor Marr is serious he will say something publically this week.
10. Where is real mediation? If GGWO is serious it will say at least something publically this week. Time has become the friend of Devil in this matter. Maybe in this matter more so than anything else. If you want Carl Stevens to go to his grave and his last days (maybe years from now) with a honorable name in the Christian community you will be so proactive it is unreal. If 1/10th of the remarks I hear from GGWO folks is true about who Carl STevens is than Carl Stevens would be wise to do the things he can to establish the ministry before the Evangelical Community so that in unity of the spirit it will grow beyond his days. If I was Pastor I would make sure Pastor Marr is on the phone on stop, speaking in the pulpit, and writing, calling everybody in an effort to make tings right.
11. We did hire a lawyer. So what? I use lawyers all the time in my field. I do sub contract work for technical jobs. I do work with Real Estate and large companies. I can't avoid lawyers if I wanted to. Non of the folks here contacted me or the like about actually doing anything in a civil action except as a matter of curiosity or some small glimmer of hope.
I think it is like everything else on this board and the like. Those who are hurt, don't know how to react. They are scared. If you take advantage of that hurt than you are enabling the devil. You are being abusive and destructive.
I will be glad to place the letter of intent to settle or began an action on the web who would sign it? Who would go with me? Who would stand up and play hard ball? Who would use the measure of scripture and latter the law if need be to get something done?
12. Finally when my wife posted a couple of peopel responded. She was the one most hurt. Notg a single Pastor was brave enough to respond in a public manner to her. Forget me, how about people like her guys. Hey folks hey about you. How many people called her that have been hurt. Say zero. So much for a heart of reconcilation and love.
Pastor Stevens if you read this and find it painful or hurtful know I wrote it with you in mind. I care for you and hope that you care enough to do the right thing. That includes your home and ministry. I care for your whole family as well as mine.
Neil
Sorry for the typo's I am doing this away from my work computer.